cheerio

2007 - 2020

Cheerio,

My sweet boy. I miss you deeply. Letting you go was probably the hardest choice I've had to make in my life. I should've known long ago how much pain you were in. For that I'm so sorry.

I knew this day would come. I guess I just thought we had a few more good years. We were just starting to get back on track. But now I'll never know what could have been. 13 years ago I may have saved you, but you actually saved me. For that I will forever be grateful. My life was better with you in it. And now without you I feel lost. I've lost a piece of my heart forever. The silence in the apartment is deafening. The absence of your spirit is evident at all moments. I had a dream about you last night. I thought you were still alive. I heard your meow. I felt your paw. It was so real. Then I woke up and remembered that you're gone.

I hope you could hear me before you passed. I stroked your belly and whispered in your ear that I love you so much. Then I kissed your cheek and said goodbye. Your suffering has ended. You’ll be in my heart and mind, always and forever. Rest in peace my baby boy.